"Feral ~ from feminine of ferus wild: having escaped from domestication and become wild"...




Wednesday

I cant sleep.

I cant sleep. Weve been up for over 30  hours.

It is a miracle we are alive.

 We lived through wildfire last night, in my truck and Mr. forestermans patriot in our hayfield below, watching  the madness burn around us. It blew up so fast we couldnt really get out safely on the road. So we did what you do in an emergency - drove to the greenest part of one of your fields, and at the right moment drove through  flames to black. 

I was shaking violently.



and when the moment was right we then drove up through the black smoke, 
just the two of us 
and battled the aftermath that was set on fire around the house . 


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I cant sleep. I hear screaming cows now, and see fire when I close my eyes.




I cant sleep.




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73 comments:

  1. oh, janice. i am so very sorry. i am crying for you and all the others. and for the animals.

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  2. I don't even have words............just so glad the two of you are safe. So sorry !

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  3. I can't even express the sorrow I feel for you and all that you love there. I'm so glad you are safe... maybe it's just as well you can't sleep... the nightmares would be horrendous. I am so sorry.

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  4. I am so deeply sorry for you. *HUGS*

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  5. Horrible, horrible. I am so sorry.

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  6. Is your house still ok and have you lost any animals? I would not be able to sleep either. I can't imagine what you are going through.

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  7. Oh I am so so sorry - I don't really have the words to say to you. Just I am sorry. Not much I know but I am sending your lots of hugs. Please take care!!!!

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  8. Oh, my God. I can't even imagine the horror. I'm glad you and Mr. Foresterman are safe and grieve for your losses. Hugs to both of you.

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  9. I feel for you. We get terrible fires here downunder too. Take care. Faisal.

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  10. Oh Janice my dear friend my heart is breaking for you. I am so glad you are safe now. I was praying so hard I hope everything else is fine.
    I am crying reading this. I was so afraid for you. I pray everyone else is safe. I hope your animals and house are OK but even if they are not I am so glad you and Mr. Foresterman made it out. I don't know what else to say. HUG love B

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  11. This is horrific, I just cant imagine what you are going through, but I am so glad you are safe, Take care.

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  12. OMGosh...I had to read this a couple of times before I could even figure it out...the last picture is so sad. What a difference a couple of weeks make...from a most joyous occassion to this...we just never know. Hoping for the best...take care, my friend...xo

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  13. I'm so sorry too and am crying right now. That sentence about the cows screaming pierced my heart. Is Dexter Dog OK? I don't know what to say, but my heart goes out to you. It is unbelievable what you have been through. I am sending lots of love and hugs to you and your hubby.

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  14. Terrifying, yes it's a miracle you are still here, So Sorry just doesn't quit seem enough, so glad the two of you made through, I am sure it is going to take you some time to asses all the damage. With all you have been through last couple of posts the rest of us should just stop whining about being hot and uncomfortable. Take care and keep us posted.

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  15. I'm so glad the two of you made it out but my heart is still racing.. I'm still scared for you, and it's over. I can only imagine what you must be feeling. Or not. I don't think I can imagine. It's too horrific and too frightening. And the cows screaming... Heart breaking.

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  16. trying to hold my head up, i can't look at the pictures...

    i don't pray but i want to. i want to say something profound and helpful but there are no words...

    how does one recover from something like this....

    hold on to mr. foresterman, i hope you can gain strength from each other....

    big hugs!!!

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  17. I can't even imagine the visceral fear that you must have experienced, sitting in the field and trying to determine how and when to make a run for it. Thank God you are safe, my dear. Is your home gone? Barns?

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  18. OMG! Glad that your ok. What a nightmare ... no wonder you can't sleep. My thoughts and prayers are with you. Maa

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  20. buttons brought me to your site with her concerned post. what a frightening thing to go through! i do hope your cows are ok. wishing you all the best— k.

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  21. I feel so bad for you guys right now, it hurts to think about what you are going through.
    Love,
    Neighgirl

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  22. Lord have Mercy! Please update us when you can, so glad you made it through but we are all concerned and praying for you and all your animals, let alone your beautiful house.

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  23. I can't think of anything meaningful to say that hasn't already been said....I am very glad you made it away safely....Please stay safe.

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  24. Every time I start thinking about you guys, I start crying again. I was so sure you were preparing early and everything would be okay. Honey, I'm SO sorry for all that you've lost and all that you've been through. Thank God you are alive!We are all waiting for your next update.And praying for you...

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  25. Oh dear God, I am so glad you are safe! I don't think I could sleep either! I am so sorry about the animals! Praying for you!!!!!

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  26. I am so sorry. I'm glad you are safe though. I just can't imagine what you are going through. I'm glad you are keeping us posted. I was just telling my Shug tonight about you and how close the fires are to you. He has a relative in Colorado and apparently their house is filling with smoke. What can us bloggers do for you to help?

    Cindy Bee

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  27. I am so sorry about this!!
    I am glad you and your husband are alive.. I pray your animals also are ok!
    Tara

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  28. Ok now i can't sleep. I keep thinking up all of these questions. Did it get your house? Where are you staying? Will you two have jobs since it looks like the trees are gone. I'll try to mot be a pest. Praying for you.

    Cindy Bee

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  29. Janice, we don't know each other, but my heart crys for you and your horror. Please know that I am praying for you and others in the same helpless situation...

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  30. Good luck and I do hope you are safe...I came over from Buttons blog :) Your fires sound like one we had many years ago with cows, sheep, horses and all the wild life being burnt and having to be destroyed..very sad and scary being in the middle of that..
    Remember your lives are the most important thing!

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  31. Thank God you are safe! How is your horse? Please tell me it is safe. Your pets? You are extremely brave! In fact, you are the toughest person I know. If you need anything let us know. You have many friends.

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  32. Those pictures are very frightening, but I imagine do not come close to what you felt being in the midst of such an inferno. I am so sorry for the trauma and loss you have experienced. Words cannot express.

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  33. So glad you two are alive and here to let us know. Prayers for you and yours, if there is anything I can do from here...

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  34. I'm glad you're okay. So sorry you are going through this.

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  35. I'm so glad you kept your wits about you - I can't imagine. And I am wondering why this isn't National news?

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  36. I cant imagine anything like this at all..I cant find the words but to say Im praying for you all down there.
    Hang on to what you have around you that is safe.

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  37. I am shocked and stunned all at the same time! I can NOT even imagine what you are going thru! Hugs and prayers are sent your way.

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  38. I have just cried for you, luv.
    Hugs and Blessings and energy and strength going to you........

    xo

    Mimi
    The Goat Borrower

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  39. Thinking of you and your family! Sending prayers your way!

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  40. I stop in once and awhile to check your blog out "the bee lady" posted a link and said to keep you in our prayers. I am so sorry for your lose that's just terrible. I will pray for you, your neighbors and all the wildlife in your area such devastation.

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  41. came over because of TexWisGirl post today ... i feel for you & please know you are in my thoughts & prayers. i hope it means something to hear this because i can only imagine the fear & sorrow you feel. love & big old hugs from me in Virginia. Beth (:

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  42. You are in my thoughts and prayers.

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  43. Words fail me and that is saying something. We keep you in our prayers. Keep us updated when you can.
    Very best wishes Molly

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  44. I can't imagine . . . tears for you, the animal cries, the devastating loss. I feel overwhelming sadness for you . . . and the many others . . .

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  45. Myself and the entire blogging community are thinking of you and sending hugs and good wishes. We are sad for you but no that in the days ahead that the warmth of the world will shine upon you again. Just so sorry, Sweetie... so sorry.

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  46. I can't imagine anything more scary than what you've just been through.
    I read about it on TexWisGirl blog today.
    My thoughts are with you from across the pond.

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  47. Dearest Janice,

    From Theresa we know about you (and lots of others of course) and wanted to stop by. Hope you will be able to sleep some and that all will eventually calm down after this inferno. Poor animals and as you wrote, you hear their cries. Makes one cringe...
    Love to you,

    Mariette

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  48. my heart hurts for you and for your animals. i can hardly type for the tears and i don't know you at all. i have watched the horrors of the fires and hurt for all the people who have lost their homes and for all the wildlife destroyed. so very very sorry to read this. God bless you and i am saying a prayer for you now.

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  49. Found you via TexWisGirl and so very glad you are okay. That fire is just horrid and all of us in MT feel your fear and share it. So glad you are safe and hope it is okay if I put your blog link on my Reading List. - Sherry

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  50. Hi there, Sandra and Theresa sent me here... I am so very very sorry for what has happened to you. Makes me cry.

    I just posted something about a bad storm we had last night --but it missed our home... Guess I have no right to complain AT ALL after seeing what you have been through.

    God Be With You.
    Hugs,
    Betsy

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  51. I read Theresa's post today and learned that your animals survived, injured, but alive. I hope you have been able to sleep some. I am thinking of you and your family and animals and you are all in my prayers.

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  52. I came over after reading TexWisGirl's post this morning. I can't even imagine the terror of that fire. I am so glad that you are safe but it must have been terrifying. My thoughts and prayers are with you and all the others who have lost so much in these awful fires.

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  53. The blog world has made us all closer, and I hope that you can feel the thoughts and prayers coming to you. I am so glad that you are safe.

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  54. Praying for you, your friends, your neighbors, your loved ones...

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  55. Just nightmarish. I'm thinking of you all.

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  56. PLEASE let me know if i can do anything!!!!

    Big hugs and LOVE
    Leontien

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  57. i´m glad you survived but i´m sorry for the cats and cows. hope this fire will stop soon! so many people are hurt. xo

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  58. I read Theresa's post and wanted to stop by.
    I'm so glad you're safe.
    My thoughts are with you, your family and your animals.
    Hugs

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  59. Hi!I got here through Teresa Texwisgirl. I cant imagine how it feels when your are so near this disaster. Sweden is following the fires on our news.
    I hope our animals and you are ok and that you are safe from the fires now.
    We are thinking of you! Hugs from Sweden!!

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  60. Oh, when I look in TexWiahGirl's blog I saw that she wright about all this.

    I feel so sad when I read this. Who can sleep when things like this happens? I send a lot wishes and nice thought's to you.

    //MICKAN

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  61. I read about this on TexWisGirl blog, I am soooooooooooo sorry. How horrible. Can't even imagine.

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  62. I'm here because I read about this on Theresa's and Nancy's blogs. This is heartbreaking. Praying you receive peace and rest soon.

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  63. I read about this on Theresa's blog and wanted to come by and express my sympathies. Your pictures give us an idea but it must have been awful, so sorry, hope you are able to sleep peacefully soon.

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  64. I came over from Shirleys. My goodness you have been through it..stay strong and think positive..you are both lucky to be alive:)

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  65. Your bravery and vulnerability are overwhelming to contemplate. I've read about you from Inger at Desert Canyon Living. I am so sorry to think of the pain and suffering inflicted on so many people and animals. Peace...

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  66. I just dropped over from Inger's.

    I used to fight fire, and now how horrid, how destructive, fires can be. I'm glad to know you have survived, those others may not. But I'm sad for you as well, considering the damage.

    Blessings and Bear hugs, as you tally your losses, and do what you can to rebuild.

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  67. I popped over from Nancy and Theresa's blogs. I'm so sorry...praying for your family. :::Big hug:::

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  68. I'm here from TexWesGirl's blog. I am so sorry for the terror you've experienced. I'm sending my best, healing thoughts to you and yours.

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  69. Please know we are thinking of you and yours....please take care!
    Ron

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